Have you ever had one of those moments where you feel like your to-do list is spiraling out of control and you have no idea where your life is going? No matter how hard you try to plan your week and get all of your goals accomplished does something always manage to fall apart?
It would seem Justin and Patrick were destined to be friends — their parents were friends in college and Justin’s great uncle was Patrick’s grandfather’s best man in his wedding.
At one point in my life, I shut down because I realized that I had become the one that everyone relied on and called, but when I needed someone, no one was there for me but God. In my journey to maturing in love, I found myself always being needed instead of wanted by the people that mattered to me the most in my life. Whether it was family, friends, relationships, my job, or even ministry, I was called to do favors, duties, or various tasks but at the end of the day, they didn’t care for my well-being.
The thing about being a hospice chaplain is that you deal with people who are at the end of their lives. There are no future dreams and hopes left in this life, but only a lot of reflection on the past. There is one case that changed me forever.
In ancient mythology, there was once a man named Narcissus who noticed his reflection in the still of the stream. He immediately fell in love with his reflection and sat there gazing at his beauty night and day. Eventually, the slave of self-love died of thirst all alone by the stream.